12.30.2018

December is over and so is 2018! Yikes 


HAPPY NEW YEAR! 
for the past year i've posted 87 times! i really, really love blogging! it inspires me and i truly feel comfortable sharing and being myself. 

THE NEW STUFF THAT HAPPENED 
So like 2018 was a fantastic year. (I think my favorite so far) but I can’t wait to see what new memories 2019 will hold. Looking back it’s crazy to see all the change that has happened. Dude life is crazy... 

I went to Africa. AFRICA Ugh I can’t even believe all of the crazy things we experienced. The stories I could tell lolol. But it was so good for me! 
I took over our garden this year and planted everything myself. It was awesome. I can’t wait till spring! 
All of the amazing memories I made this year with my fave people. (Sometimes I just scroll through my pictures and want to cry lol)
I GRADUATED!!!! DID A POST ABOUT IT HERE I CAN’T EVEN EXPRESS HOW GREAT IS IS TO BE FINISHED WITH SCHOOL!!!

My baby sis was born this summer (that makes 7 of us) and she has stolen our hearts ♥️ 
AND TOP OF THAT i spent a weekend camping out on the beach with friends 

And there was so much more.. days. Summer. Laughter. Moments. Driving with the windows open. Blasting a good song. 

       
So I guess this post is saying that I’m really excited about 2019 i read some of this past year’s blog post and realized that my style has changed. I’m much more lifestyle than I used to be. It’s kind of crazy to see the change in my thoughts and perspective. Though I’ll still be child at heart. Just ask any of my friends. Lolol DREAMLAND IS STILL MY HOME. 

 what I’m trying to say is that my eyes have opened up and I’m seeing a bit more of what’s in what. I’m finding out what 19 year old Janelle is and what she likes doing. Its pretty cool, but a little scary at the same time.  I had a lot of bad things in 2018 but a lot of beautiful things too. I’ve been learning to readjust my priorities a bit and LOVE THE LITTLE MOMENTS. 

2019 is going to be lit. 

                            
WHAT UNEXPECTED BUT AMAZING THING HAPPENED TO YOU THIS YEAR? ALSO YOUR TOP FAVE POST OF MINE THIS YEAR?
12.29.2018

I'm Afraid Too



Do we let fear control our lives? When my life is great,  its easy to forget about it. 
and then fear. its that all to familiar gut wrenching feeling deep in the pit of your stomach. the one that no matter how hard you try and forget is still there.

loosing what I so carefully dreamed is terrifying.

in the desire to be free from fear I instead replace it with a false truth. you bury the dread, pain and panic. and its okay for a while, you may even forget about it.
until the next avalanche comes.

then what? do i start all over again? am i going to have to live with this fear forever?
will i ever be able to stand up and say ENOUGH. 
I want to, Oh how i want to.
i think I'm learning too. the fear is still there but i don't have to let it control me. 

FEAR IS A LIAR (go listen to Zach Williams song)
12.24.2018

 CHRISTMAS HAPPENING + FEELS 


Merry Christmas folks!!

Ahh the day we celebrate Jesus, Family and, just the joy of being able to do life with the people we love best. The snow that falls lazily down. Capturing moments. Wrapping the gifts. Seeing the look on little siblings faces as they open their presents. My new record player it’s amazingggggg. ^^ new books. Christmas morning playlist. Fresh coffee in the morning. Baking all the yummy goodness. The house filling up with family. Laughter. 

I’d like to leave you with the thought I had after watching It’s a Wonderful Life. 
No man is truly poor as long as he has friends.”



I’m off to go stuff myself with delicious food *cough* but basically I just wanted to say MERRY CHRISTMAS  EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!



What are you doing for Christmas// fave Christmas song// Christmas Memory??
12.23.2018

12 DOC || Till the Dawn Breaks|| part two

Guyssss I’m so sorry this post is late. But without further ado here is the conclusion to Till The Dawn Breaks 

The war was over. The words echoed in Evelyn’s head. Did she even dare to hope that the papers were right? After all the thousands of men whose blood was shed, the letters to mothers and wives who would never see their loved ones again. After all the days, months, years spent waiting for the news dreading and yet, impatient to see what it said. After every day, week and month had been of one thought only. Will the people I love die today? And now they said it was over.

“I-I have to tell mother.” She stuttered. All around her there were shouts and cheers. “hurray for the Allies. I knew we could beat the Kiser. Trust our boys to put up a fight!”

 Blindly Evelyn made her way home Oblivious to the cold.

Her mother was in the kitchen when she arrived. The smell of freshly baked bread waifed through the door as she came in. “Mother, the war is over.” She said hardly believing the words she was speaking.

“What” Susan looked up an incredulous expression written on her face.”

In a few short words Evelyn had recounted her experience at the General Store.

“I can hardly believe it.” Tears streamed down her mother’s face. “My boys are coming home.” She whispered. “Thank you Lord!” She clasped Evelyn in a tight embrace and the two women cried tears of pure joy.

“Oh” cried Evelyn “it was worth living four long weary years for this one moment. Mother let’s run up the flag!”

I wonder wrote Evelyn in her journal later that night after all the joy and celebration had calmed down. If life will seem dull and monotonous after this. We have had a terrible four years of being fed horror and, fear, terrible setbacks and amazing victories. I think it will be the most splendid thing to live a uninteresting life and to not dread the coming of the mail every day.

We have won the victory but, oh what a price we have paid.

I overheard father telling some client of His that we have a duty to remember all the brave men that have sacrificed their lives for freedom. I know I shall never forget.

But it is over. At last!

December 12

Carl Miller came home just after Thanksgiving. Glenwood meet them with brass banners and a crowd of cheering towns people. Carl was beaming in spit of his wooded leg and Mary looked like she would never let him out of her sight again. Their engagement was announced a few days later. Carl was going to run the general store with Mary’s father. “This wasn’t how I planned on living my life” he ran a hand through his blond hair. “But after this war I’m just glad that I get to live a peaceful life.”

A few weeks later Evelyn’s dark haired, serious brother David came home. Only Evelyn, her family and a few friends were there to greet him as he stepped off the train.

It was wonderful to have him home again. Having one more person to fill the empty seats at the table. They all anticipated the day when no chair would be left empty.

“We’ve had a couple of rough years but I suppose when it comes down to it we’re the better for it.” Mary commented. She was curled up in a large chair in the Grants living room knitting a new pair of gloves for Carl. For as long as she knew Mary, Evelyn had never seen her sit idly. Whatever project or problem needed tackling you could be sure that Mary was running or at least freely giving her opinion as to how things should be done.

Evelyn smiled. Mary really was a brick. Not many people could have gone what she went through and still have a positive perspective of life.

“I know I wouldn’t want to go back to the girl I was before the war, I was so frivolous and foolish.”

“And these years of war have molded you into a strong woman.” Mary deftly tied her last knot. “There, I’ve finished.” She sighed. “ Honestly Evelyn I must confess that I detest knitting with every fiber of my being.”

Surprised Evelyn looked up from her own knitting. “Really, why Mary I never would have guessed.”

“Why should you have? I’ve never complained about It. That doesn’t change anything.”

Evelyn sat back in her own chair. “Mary you’re a dear!”

It had been a long and tiring day. Evelyn had been up since well before the sun rose preparing the house for the arrival of her brothers and sisters.

Elsie would be coming home from Nursing School the next day. No one knew if Walter would make it home for Christmas but they were all trying to be optimistic. He had phoned them from New York City and told them that the train stations were filled with soldiers all trying to get home for Christmas. Sara and Charles were coming over from the Harbor. Evelyn’s mother walked around with a joy and smile that Evelyn hadn’t seen in years. it looked like all the family would be gathered together for Christmas.

 Together again. At last.

And yet there was no word from Jack. Not a letter or telegraph or even a phone call. She had found out from his mother that he was back in the States. But he had not even bothered to tell her. Maybe he didn’t care for her anymore. Their few spoken words of promise had been so long ago. So many things had happed since then.

 Yes that was it. She had to somehow move past her feeling. Father had mentioned that Glenwood needed a teacher for the fall. Perhaps she should consider that job. Not that she particularly liked teaching but, she had to do something.

A nock sounded at the door. Setting down the basket of sheets Evelyn hurried to answer it. Maybe it was one of her siblings home a day early.

A man stood on the door steps. His military uniform was old, faded and had been patched many times. There was a scar on his right temple that had not been there before and a few strands of gray hair were sprinkled into his dark head.

Jack” Evelyn gasped. Of course it was Jack but he looked so much older and oh so very worn.

This couldn’t be the sweetheart she had sent off to war. He was so much changed, and that scar, the lines about his eyes. Her thoughts whirled

Then he spoke his voice choked with emotion.

 “Evelyn, my Evelyn.” In a moment she was in His arms. Tears of joy and happiness streamed down her face.

He was not the same man standing before her, but the she wasn’t the same girl. They had both been changed by the war. But maybe that was okay.

He was here. Home. Safe.

“Look Jack” she whispered. “It’s snowing.”

And it was, lovely large snowflakes were lazily falling down around them.

Jack’s arm was wrapped tightly around her waist,

 “Merry Christmas darling.”

The End


12.20.2018

12 DOC || Till the Dawn Breaks|| part one 






Often when people tell war stories the main characters ultimately accomplish some huge and seemingly unattainable goal. But sometimes I think that one of the hardest things a person can do is simply live their life, although every.Single. Thing about has changed. Perhaps the greatest and most rewarding stories are not The most thrilling or adventurous, but maybe it’s about the unbearable hardships of the monotonous and fearful lives the people at home glad. Waiting for death hoping for life.

I hope you guys enjoy this story :)



November 1918

November had come again. The long snowy days that stretched one after another seeming to never end. At least that’s what 19 year old Evelyn Grant thought to herself as she opened the door of her home and stepped out into a white wonderland. 

 The cold air rushed over her, pulling the gray woolen scarf tighter around her face she began walking down the snow packed road.


Will this dreadful winter ever end? She thought to herself. The wind was coming off the harbor in icy sheets that cut through the layers of clothing and chilled a body to the bone.


 “Blast this ice.” She muttered under her breath almost falling on a slippery patch of road. Tears welled up in her eyes. She was tired of the pain, tired of wondering and waiting. always waiting. tired of being alone. Tired of holding back three years worth of tears for the sake of being strong.Tired of feeling helpless. What was the use of knitting socks and tearing up sheets for bandages when she could be out at the front helping the war effort.


This was what she had told her father Adam Grant three years ago. She was almost 17 after all. She had pleaded with him to let her go but her father had shook his head.


 “ no my dear, your mother can’t have one more child to lie awake at night and worry about. Two boys at the front, Elsie away at nursing school and, Sarah married and living so far away. No stay home and be a comfort to your mother through these trying days.” So that what Evelyn had done, all because she was the baby of the family. She had stayed and watched her two brothers leave perhaps never to be seen again. She had stayed home while her older sister Elsie went over England to care for her wounded fiancée. and when Sara who had Been happily married only a few months before the war began, was given word that her Husband had died in battle of Vimy on the Ridge. She and little Charles Jr had come to say in Glenwood Harbor with her family.


 They welcomed her with open arms. Evelyn felt even more helpless after that. Sara had taken over most of her work leaving only a small amount of chores to occupy the long days. Of course there where social outings to go to and plan but the crowd was so much smaller then of years before. Most of the boys had left and many girls were often to busy volunteering for the war effort to spend their time on frivolous activities.


At first Evelyn spent most of her days moping around the house and writing letter to her brothers. The gradually she found her place, one night she had been invited to A Red Cross meeting and though knitting stockings was the very thing she despised doing she gritted her teeth and dove into it with a grim satisfaction. Besides it was nice to get out and see some other girls for once, she reasons with herself. Even though all they did was talk about their sweethearts and fiancés fighting in the war. Although she outwardly scoffed at those conversations Deep in her heart she understood their need to express their fears and emotions. Hadn’t she promised handsome dark haired Jackson Blake the night before he left for training she wouldn’t marry another man till he returned.


He had kissed her there under the willow by the spring. It was her first kiss and for a week she went around with a secret smile on her lips. She slept with his love letters under her pillow every night and awaited each mail delivery with hopeful anticipation. She had lived these emotions for three years. Hopelessness and yet hope.


“How much more am I supposed to be able to bare”. She whispered, Her breath leaving a cloud of white in the air.


She was tired of being afraid every morning that this would be the day that news would come of Lieutenant Jackson Blake death and shatter the dreams she held so dear to her heart. Jack who always knew how to make her laugh, who understood her better than she did herself. It was utterly impossible to even consider that he would not be with her and yet, she awoke every morning with one thought in the front of her mind. Is Jack still alive? Please God let him be.


What was it that mother had said the other day when we heard of yet another tragedy. She had looked at Evelyn and Sara with such sad, courageous eyes and said.


“My dear girls let us not forget that there is a God who knows and is much wiser than any man could ever be. So when news like this comes remember the He will give you courage to keep the Faith. Never forget that we must keep the Faith.”


If only it was that easy. Evelyn though. If only I was strong like mother and Sara. But no I will be strong. Things have to change sometime. They must. I will just be like mother encouraged and keep the Faith.


Her thoughts rambled on in such a fashion as she made her way up the step of the Glenwood Harbor General store.


She was greeted or, more like assaulted by a blue eyed girl who pounced on her the moment she walked through the door.


“My goodness Evelyn you’re just the person I’ve been meaning to call on. I’ve been wanting to fly down to see you folks but the store has been so busy these last few days. What with everyone buying Christmas presents to send over for their boys.” Pushing back a strand of her golden hair from her face she continued. “isn’t this just the greatest of luck, You’ve certainly saved me a miserable walk down to your place.”


Although Mary Stewart was 3 years older than Evelyn she was one of her closest friends. Evelyn’s sister Elsie and Mary had been chums, both being the same age and a mischievous spark in them they soon became inseparable. When Elsie left for college Mary had picked up being Evelyn’s older sister for Elsie. Often She could be overbearing and annoying with her know it all attitude and at times Evelyn had cried bitter and angry tears over Her stinging rebukes, but Mary was to her as part of her life and family, as any of her other siblings. No one if asked would have called Mary pretty, her face was to narrow, her nose to pointy (all the Stewarts had noses like that you know) and that weird way the one side of her mouth curved into a wry smile was quite strange. But her eyes, if ever there were beautiful eyes Mary Stewart had them. They were the strangest eyes, seeming to change color like the wind, sometimes they were a sliver blue, other days they were a winter gray. She was the type of person that once met was never forgotten.


Mary was a part of Glenwood Harbor as anyone ever could be. She had lived in the town all her life, her father owned the general store. Consequently she always new the latest gossip and news. Mary’s mother had died only a few years after she was born and for a good many years of her life Mary had been free to roam wherever she please often finding herself in dreadful scrapes. Well meaning women of the Village had tried to train this wild tomboy of a girl but to no avail. She spoke her mind with gusto and when she set her mind to do something heaven and earth could not change her opinion. Towns people gave up on her ever becoming a proper woman but slowly as Mary grew the wild, reckless girl was replaced with a confident and opinionated woman. She even had a fiancé, Carl Edwards a rather short fellow with a friendly face. But according to Mary there was no one else in the world half as good as her Carl.


Undeterred by Mary’s stream of chatter Evelyn nearly smiled and pulled off her gloves.


“Well then I’m glad I saved you the trip. It was cold and my hands are about frozen stiff.”


“You know I do believe its going to snow again.” Mary lamented gazing out the window.


Clear across Mary’s dismal voice cut the telephone ring. Mary’s father answered it.


“Yes- what, what? Is it true- is it official? Thank you! Yes goodbye.”


He turned and faced the few shoppers who were all staring at him wondering what that was all about.


Mary as always was the first to speak. “What was that all about Father?”


He looked at her a strange expression on his worn face. “That my dear was a call from the newspaper. It seems as though Germany and Austria are suing for peace. It seems that The Great War is over.”


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Part two on Monday! 

How are the last few days before Christmas going? Any last minute shoppers out there?!?

12.18.2018

12 days of Christmas ||Christmas  Recommendations for Bookworms   ||



                  





One of my New Years resolutions for last year was to READ 100 BOOKS, not just novels but some real informing and educating Books. Ones that would push me to think and become grounded in my Faith. 


And I did!!!!!


So.... I thought I would share some of those books with you guys. I know often it can be hard to find interesting books (or there are WAY to many books that you already want to read) I know I’ve felt like both of these before. BUT SRSLY books make the best Christmas Gifts for sure. So here they are in no particular order. (Also I know this isn’t a very Christmas-y post but I’m always on the hunt for good books to give as gift.) 


apologize in advance for the long ramble im about to go on. cause guyss books are my jammm.
  • Hidden Places By Lynn Austin is probably my favorite book she has written.. ughhh I’ve read this book at least 4 times (so much love) I honestly couldn’t put it down. This is a great book!!!!!!!!!!!! In a way that only Lynn Austin can, she waves a story full of secrets and hidden pasts, alternating between the past and the present.
The novel begins in 1931 when Eliza, a young widow is in desperate need of money and help to save her orchard. A homeless man, Gabe shows up injured and helps her in more ways than one.
Complete with an Aunt Batty,/Betsy, this novel is full of bits of humor and sorrow. I love how Lynn Austin gives an insight to Betsy, Eliza and Matthew by going back into their pasts.
The writing style is similar to All She Ever Wanted, which is another great book by Lynn Austin that I highly recommend!!!


  • The Story Girl By L.M.Montgomery.
You thought you could get away without me SHOUTING AT YOU TO BUY AT LEAST ONE OF L.M.MONTGOMERY'S BOOKS BUT YOU THOUGHT WRONG. okay if you've ever watched the show Road to Avonlea when you were a kid THIS is the book the show was based on. This book will take you back to the years of yesterday.

  • Day of War by Cliff Graham
 Cliff Graham vividly brings an Old Testament story to life with his first book of the "Lion of War" series. "Day of War" is a fantastic historical fiction revolving around some of the most incredible characters in ancient history. Graham directly attacks today's seemingly ubiquitous misconceptions about Bible stories. Many people would be surprised to find graphic, epic battles, murderous and corrupt villains, passionate love, and tragically flawed protagonists--all elements of great stories--in Biblical text. However, Graham reminds us of the adventure to be found in the Scripture, perhaps never more evident than in the stories of David and his warriors. (This is a great book that might be perfect for the brother who enjoys a good book now and then)


  • Uninvited By Lysa TerKeurst 
Lysa’s heart, oh my gosh, so precious and so sincere. It shines through in her writing. The first time I read this book I was in a season where I was feeling pretty good, yet still found so much joy in reading it. The second time I went back to this book I was in a place of really needing it. It’s for the rejected, the ones not wanted, the uninvited. During a time I was feeling really rejected, this book brought so much needed truth to my life. Any come on seriously, we have all felt like this at one point or another, no matter how big or how small. Please read it and let God come in and work on your heart.
  • The Hobbit by J.R.R.Tollien 
Tolkien's Hobbit takes the imagination on a wonderful flight of fantasy. I read this book on a yearly basis and each year I am delighted and captivated by the world of Bilbo Baggins. Bilbo is a reluctant member of an adventure that will forever change his life and the lives of those around him. He accompanies 13 dwarves on a mission to reclaim the gold and mountain kingdom of their ancestors from the dragon, Smaug. They have many adventures and mishaps on their journey to the lonely mountain including the climactic battle of five armies. Bilbo finds a magic ring along the way which leads, not only to a rise in his stature, but also to a new adventure for his friends in "The Lord of the Rings." Tolkien is a master storyteller and the depth of his skill is best seen in this tale. In the following trilogy, "The Lord of the Rings" the story is continued, but the sheer delight of "The Hobbit" is never fully recaptured.
This next one is mostly for the die hard history fans. I’ve always had a fascination for history just ask anyone in my family lolol

  • The Real Lincoln by Thomas J. DiLorenzo

Ahhh this book will make you think! It’s a brilliant view of the Civil War and a completely different point. Also let’s just get it out there that anyone who has studied the Civil War knows that it really wasn’t about slaves but states rights. If you want a book that will make you take a second look at what really went on during the War read this.

Have you read any of these books? If so what did you think of them? Also guysss it’s almost CHRISTMAS!!!!! *flails hands wildly* 
12.16.2018

12 Days of Christmas || The Prescott Family Dinner|| part two 


PART TWO
She rushed to the kitchen in a panic. without bothering to put an apron she open the stove and peered anxiously in. Everything appeared to be fine but, than what was making that awful smell? She couldn’t have her house smelling like burnt food. Not when everyone was arriving.
 Upon further investigation she found the source of the smell. Down in one of the corners of the oven was a shriveled piece of bread nearly black and smoking terribly. Cecelia suddenly remembered that she had put it there earlier that morning planning on only warming it up for a few minutes but, in the craziness of her morning she had completely forgotten about it. Quickly grabbing it out of the oven she open the window and toss the bread out.
Just in time. There was a knock at the front door, smoothing her hair she hurried up to greet her first guests. The house has begun to fill with Family from near and far, the sound of laughter and peoples voices rang cheerily throughout the house. Pies, cakes and all sorts of delicious treats filled the table as aunts and, cousins brought their most prized recipes. Soon the announcement was made that lunch was ready to be served. Somehow they were able to crowd around the table, Andrew gave a beautiful prayer that would have made uncle Richard ( the clans only minister) proud. Then the eating begin. Cecelia watched in delight as people exclaimed over how delightful and delicious the food was. Even Aunt Grace who was an exceptional cook and consequently quite picky with her meal preferences declared that Cecilia’s cranberry sauce with some of the best she had ever eaten. Afterwords the family lingered around the table partially because they were too full to leave and partially because it really was a comfortable dining room. Instead of sitting and catching up with her family Cecelia began to clear away the empty dishes and proceeded to stack them in the kitchen. Then she brought out the desserts and served them to her already full guests.
 Later after eating all the delicious food they could Cecelia sister Sara began to play the old and cherished hymns of Christmas. Others joined in and soon the whole family stood around the piano lustily singing out the beautiful verses of old.. God rest ye merry gentlemen, let nothing be dismayed. Remember Christ the Savior was born on Christmas Day.
That is all of the family except Cecelia. She was busily trying to clean out the stain from one of her linen napkins. The hours flew by and one by one the relatives left calling out merry Christmas goodbyes.
Then they were gone.
Dismally Cecelia looked about her house. Was it only a couple hours ago that it was in pristine condition? Somehow she didn’t feel quite as satisfied and happy as she should have. Everything had gone perfectly. No one had argued or spoke of unpleasant things. They why did she feel so empty?
Suddenly a tear trickled down her face.
Noticing her tears Andrew took her hands and his warm strong ones. “What’s the matter my dear?” His blue eyes searched her face. “ The dinner went splendid, I sure I haven’t eaten that much in goodness knows when.”
 Cecelia sighed and set down the dish she was drying.
“Oh I don’t know what it is” she said glumly. “ I know everything was perfect, and lovely and wonderful. And its selfish of me to feel this way but I only wish that I wouldn’t have put all my effort into everything but the people around me. I spent so much time trying to make everything perfect that I missed out on spending time with the people that I love. And I just realized this very instant that all these weeks I spent planning and, decorating don’t matter half as much as taking time and being present. She wiped the tears from her eyes and sighed again. “It really was a beautiful day though, wasn’t it Andrew.”
Andrew looked lovingly down at his wife “yes it certainly was, and still is. Look here Cecilia, grab your coat and mittens and let’s go on an evening ramble.”
A few minuets later they stepped outside into a world of majestic beauty. The snow was gently falling from the sky. The lights from the village in the valley flickered like hundreds of candles filling the world around them.
The echoes of Christmas Carolers and laughter faintly drifted in the air.
The couple stood hand in hand each silently taking in the splendor before there eyes. The disappointment Cecilia had felt a few minuets ago vanished away. She breathed in the clear, fresh winter air and whispered softly.
“Oh Andrew listen, hear the Church bells Chime.”
And all over the beautiful town came the grand old message of peace on earth and, good will to men.
THE END

12.14.2018

12 Days of Christmas  THE PRESCOTTS FAMILY DINNER || Part One ||

Yayyyy you guys I’m so excited for the first day of 12 Days of Christmas :) shout out to Faith Stories by Firefly (Also Check out the other lovely blogs who are part of 12DOC on Her blog )
Also I’m super stoked to share with y’all my first story I’ve ever posted onRamblings of a bookworm! *cue drumroll *
Christmas isn’t a season, it’s a feeling-  Edna Ferber 

Winter, 1904
Cecelia Wilson wasn’t sure whether to be excited or overwhelmed at the prospect of hosting this year’s Christmas dinner at her home. First of all the Prescott side of the family was frightfully loud and her own home, nestled between a cluster of evergreens was really far too small to Accommodate them all comfortably . Although it was perfect for her and Andrew.
They had only been married 6 months but already Cecilia couldn’t imagine living anywhere else. The small house was the oldest standing building in Rosewood. The old fashioned furniture spoke for that. From the west window of the study the blue, gray waves could be seen smashing onto the Harbor Cliffs. In the summer the tang of the ocean hung in the air. It was a little out of the way, most people would have hated living three miles from a neighbor and even farther from town but, to Cecilia it was Her and Andrews own little sanctuary. A place that was all theirs.
“I Suppose” she mussed herself. “if I move the Settee too the corner of the living room and open the doors to the dining room like so, we could fit everybody at the table. Except the children of course, they’ll have to sit at the kitchen table.”
The first problem solved she moved onto the next one. Where to place everyone, who should sit by whom, And such. There were about 30 Prescott in a little town of Rosewood and of course they would all be there. For as long as I look every member Christmas has been filled with aunts and uncles and cousins all cramming into a relatives house, and celebrating the day together in one loud and happy ordeal. But one had to be so careful when sitting family members even down for the meal. For instance say aunt Kathy and cousin Mary were seated by side each other. It was to be expected that within a couple minutes one or the other would be telling a story of how so-and-so died By falling into a pond in winter, or some other dreadful tail. This was no way to begin a Christmas meal no indeed. And then there was uncle William and father. Where is there even one thing they could talk about without arguing and causing a scene? And politics Cecelia shudder, was the absolute worst. Because then it was it just father and uncle William. It was every uncle, cousin, and anyone who had even a small opinion of the matter trying to as Andrew has said once “put there oar in.”
Well” Cecilia turn away with determination, “I had best get to it.”
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Christmas morning came bright, fine, and cold. Cecilia had been up since daybreak cleaning and decorating at a furious rate. By 11 o’clock everything was nearly finished. the cranberry sauce was bubbling on the back of the stove, the turkey Mr. Miltons largest, was sizzling in the oven. The shelf in the pantry held two apple pie‘s upon which Cecelia had steak for culinary reputation.
Glancing out the East kitchen window she saw Andrew trudging through the drifts of snow towards the barn . “I do hope he’s about finished with his chores, our guests should be arriving in about an hour and I would really like to open our own presents together.”
As she waited for him to come in she prepared herself for the day ahead of her. Cecilia wasn’t what people typically called beautiful, or even pretty. But there was a certain grace and poise that she carried herself with that made others around her stop and notice the small, slim girl with the strange green eyes. Personally all Cecilia saw when she looked at herself in the mirror was a thin girl with 8 freckles across her nose. It never revealed to her how her eyes crinkled when she laughed or, the vibrant way her face lit up when she spoke. after a couple minutes of scrutinizing between her dresses she finally chose a red striped knit gown with A row of elegant black buttons down the back. A simple gold necklace that Andrew had given to her for her birthday was fastened at her neck. Next she turned to her hair, golden honey brown shade. she twisted it up into a style she had recently seen in a magazine. Satisfied with her appearance she went back out to the kitchen to check the lunch. a few minutes later Andrew came in.they had just enough time to exchange gifts and have a few moments to themselves before the guest began to arrive.
 Oh my I hope I’m ready for this. Cecelia murmured biting her lip. Uncle Henry and cousin Mary were pulling up in the carriage. Everything is going to be fine.she reassured herself. Then She sniffed, and sniffed again. A sinking feeling filled her stomach. something was burning.
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Part two on Monday 
12.12.2018

LIFE LATELY


                   
So.....
I haven’t done a life update in quite a while, I’ve been pretty busy with life. so here a few things ive been up to the past few weeks 

  1) I’ve been super busy with work. It’s crazy how you look at your week and think there’s not much planed.. but then suddenly its like okay awesome! i actually have time to take a shower!

2) um Christmas shopping 🙈 dude I’ve hardly started lolol I guess I’ll probably be one of those desperate last minuet shoppers. But srly I’ve been trying to make it a priority to focus this month especially on the birth of Jesus and what that really means for us. 
3) we had our first real cold weather. The other day it was -3 when I got up. Okay bye now I’m moving somewhere warmer. 

4) I’ve been drinking wayyyyy to many Starbucks Christmas coffees. Please send help. 
5) I saw the sunrise last week andddd I seriously was so inspired to wake up early every morning.... until my alarm went off at 6:00 the next morning. I was much less inspired at that moment. lolol 

6) Iv'e Been binge reading (is that a thing) the Anne of Green Gables and Emily of New Moon Books. and I'm pretty sure that they ARE THE GREATEST BOOKS OF ALL TIMES. sorry for shouting but srly so luch love for L.M.Montgomery 

  7)  Trying to cuddle with the baby sis before she gets any bigger. why do they have to grow up so fast!?!?


 8) let the Christmas movie binge watching begin. and by Christmas binge movie watching, I mean watching all my regular shows that I've been to busy to see. XD I'm not a huge Christmas movie fan but I am a sucker for the classics. 

9) Journaling and writing down thoughts. I am by no means the best hand writer, but i find it refreshing and releasing to sit and write my thoughts or "draw" a picture. also I've been thinking how therapeutic it is to keep  a journal. writing down our hopes, dreams, sorrows, pain, joy  all recorded in the pages of a book. 



10) i am in loveeeee with the song Control by For King And Country. if you haven't heard their new album check it out. srly its amazing.




how is your Christmas season going? Its really flying by for me. tell me one of your fave Christmas movies.   

p.s. I'm part of Twelve Days of Christmas blog tag starting this Friday. so be sure to check back here for a new post XD XD


12.06.2018

Behold || Blog Tour||

     

Hey guys, I'm so excited to share with you this beautiful little collection of short Christmas stories written by the lovely Faith Potts. As Christmas approaches i think its good to be reminded of the REAL reason we celebrate this holiday & I love how Faith centers her stories around this fact.

About The Book 

A collection of short stories honoring the birth of our Savior. 
 From two siblings caught up in the harrowing days of World War Two, tow separated foster children in the US...
From a memorable road trip across the Southeast, to the reunion  of a war torn family....
 You'll be swept up into the Christmas Spirit with the endearing stories tucked inside these pages. The story lines range from family to romance to the bond of community, with setting scattered across America and beyond. 
Behold the beauty of the Savior's birth with the gathering of stories that warm the soul and bless the heart.
Here is the link to buy this book, which would BTW make a awesome Christmas gift! Amazon Kindle 


See doesn't that just want to make you  curl up on a couch, a hot coffee (or tea) in hand and dive into this delightful book. 
 About the Author 
 Saved by God's grace, Faith Potts is a teenage writer and Home school graduate. living with her family and beloved labs in the North Carolina mountains. When she's not weaving stories, consuming large amounts of coffee, reading stacks of books, or studding American Sigh Language, she can be found laughing harder than is healthy, daydreaming and -of course- blowing dandelions.


Find Faith on 


Enter the Giveaway 


First Place: A paperback Copy of Behold
Second Place: Ebook copy of Behold 



Do you love Christmas as much as i do? Id love to hear what you thought about this review in the comments xxx 

11.25.2018

Family being Family 



Family.
How much does that word mean to you? What do you think of when you hear it? 
I think of so many memories that if I would try and write them down it would literally take pages and pages. And I realize that in being able to do that just how blessed I am. Blessed to have cousins and aunts to go Black Friday shopping with at 3 in the morning. Catching up with family I haven’t seen in a long time. Legit loving the people around you so much that no words can discribe how you feel. Knowing that this is your family and you belong. 
Family is such a sacred and amazing thing that we should never take for granted what an important role they play in your life. 
So today and every day I am thankful for family. 

What are you thankful for today?
Plus one crazy Thanksgiving memory 

11.14.2018

Hey kid, let’s celebrate 

Heyyyy all. I miss you.

I’m driving home today (as I write this) from one of my many cousins weddings  & I’ve just been thinking about how amazing it is to be surrounded by people you love celebrating a beautiful event. We had so much fun simply talking and laughing together. Seeing cousins and fam I hadn’t seen in months. Oh and I PRACTICALLY DRANK COFFEE ALLL WEEKEND so there’s that too. It was so renewing to have late night  laughter and conversations and just get caught up on each others lives. ALSO I HAD BUBBLE TEA FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER. (btw it was delicious) 
I came away with a full heart and a joyful spirit. And so thankful for the memories I’ve made.

  But I’ve been thinking how I want to celebrate people on a daily basis. Notice the little things. Simple things. Coming and praying along side someone . Take time out of your life and spend it with a friend. These soul moments are the times you will remember and cherish for the rest of your life, I promise xxxx

ps. How do you relate? What joyful moments have experienced recently?

                  
11.08.2018

Three War Romance Clichés That Get Old   

               

In the past few years I’ve become a lot more particular with the Romance books I read. Don’t get me wrong there is nothing I like better than sitting down and reading a good novel. (although they seem harder and harder to find)
 I love War stories, the bravery and strength that the people who lived through and experienced such atrocities and yet can somehow still survive is interesting to me. 
It’s been hard finding authors that don’t over romanticize these stories though. i mean like really hard.
What draws me to A book and captivate my soul is the rawness. The anguish. The utter desolation of hope. The sorrow of losing someone you deeply love. I could never imagine going through one of these, but all of them within a couple of years. I get that theses aren't pleasant things but it is real. there's not always a happy ending. The couple doesn't always get to ride off onto the sunset together. Its just not like that. 
War is not beautiful. It’s not romantic. It’s often, blood, pain, tears. Mothers waiting at home waiting for sons and husbands never to come home. Sweethearts knowing that they’ll somehow have to reconstruct their life without the one that made their life sparkle. 
Obviously I know nothing of war. But come on, the guys don’t always come home. The ending for most isn’t perfect. ALSO WHY ARE THERE WAY MORE WW2 BOOKS THAN WW1.. I can’t even.. 
okay so now that im done ranting talking lets get down to the three cliches. 

                       
1) the Hero
This is generally the guy (not always tho) but it doesn’t matter. Also why is everyone a pilot?!? It’s not like there was any other jobs in the military. Often in a lot of books every single chapter builds up to one pivotal seen, and almost every single time you can guess the ending. There is no surprises. Everything is alway the same. This is just my personal opinion but wouldn’t it be so much more interesting if the main characters weren’t always the same. 

                            
2) does everything ALWAYS have to turn out perfectly ?!?! lolol Don’t get me wrong. I hate when someones significant other gets killed. but War is not beautiful. It’s not romantic. It’s blood, pain, tears. Mothers waiting at home waiting for sons and husbands never to come home. Sweethearts knowing that they’ll somehow have to reconstruct their life without the one that made their life sparkle. 
Obviously I know nothing of war. But come on, the guys don’t always come home. 
                           
3) Life does not go on as usual. You can’t just pick up where you left off. You can’t have gone off to the war without becoming a different person. There is no way  that someone who has seen the level of bloodshed as a soldier on the front would have experienced could walk away from something like that with no emotional baggage.. yeah I don’t think so.  I can only imagine how difficult it must be to try and fit back into society when your entire self has changed. 

While it’s true that I do like sad books a lot, it doesn’t mean that i always want the main characters to die, although I have seen some books that have soon it well.Everyone is going to like different books and authors. Although I do like a happy ending just as much as the rest of you. My point is that, that’s not always how life is. 
Would I loveeee every single book on your shelf? Probably not. And same goes for my books.  I love how two people who read the same book can come away with a completely different opinion.  Because how boring would it be if we all liked and disliked the same people. 
Thanks for reading :) 

So what do you think? Do any of these cliches drive you crazy? Or have you seen any examples of these cliches that you enjoy?
10.25.2018

RAW


Why is it that we always compare ourselves to others. often People use the phrase “be original” or just “be yourself

 but who am I? What am I? 


Some days I feel like a strong valiant woman, capable of taking the world on. And then I am around someone who is so much more bold, fearless and confident than me.. and the doubt and unworthiness comes back like an unwanted friend. 

Confidence is something that can not be “gained” by being like others. You can’t try and mold yourself to peoples personality’s. It’s so easy to compare and feel less than and inadequate. 
I’ve struggled with this quite a lot. 
The feeling or pressure to “be a certain way” or act differently. To be STRONG, and Know exactly what I want in life.. my beliefs, be  different and bold. 

I don’t really have words to tell you how to change or stop these feeling. Because often I don’t know myself. I just want to tell you that you ARE strong, you are courageous and fearless. 
Your Strength, Courage, and Bravery is beautiful. But It’s uniquely your own. We are all strong. Just in different ways. So why try and measure up to someone else's personality. 

There will always be people who’s vibrant and outgoing zeal can intimidate you. Just stop. Have courage in who God created you to be. 

ps. also look up the song THIS IS ME, From the movie The Greatest Showman
10.17.2018

7 OF MY ALL TIME FAVORITE SONGS 


Last week I shared with you Music is a Glimpse into the Soul and I’m here today with some of my personal favorites <3 <3 
Some of them are happy fun songs, others are deep heartfelt ones, while yet others express joy and Triumph..  and all of them are amazing. DON'T ASK ME TO PICK A FAVORITE, BECAUSE I COULDN'T... EVER.
[btw. I linked the titles to Apple Music so you can check them out as you go] 


LIVE IT WELL by switchfoot 
I feel that this song is a sort of anthem for me. Life is so fleeting you know, and some days we forget what a gift it is to simply be able to wake up and live another day. It’s a reminder to me to live each moment with purpose and joy.
“Life is short I wanna live it well, one life one story to tell, life is short I wanna live it well, and your the one I’m living for. Awaken oh my soul. EVERY BREATH YOU TAKE IS A MIRACLE. Life is short I wanna live it well” 
THIS IS HOME by switchfoot (I really like this band in case you haven’t noticed) XD XD
When I hear this song I always remember listening to it as my plane landed back in the USA. I had been literally across the world for nearly a month. & I can’t express how amazing it felt to be back “home”
this is home, now I’m finally where I belong, yeah this is home, I’ve been searching for a place of my own, and now I’m finally home”
A MILLION DREAMS  by the cast of the greatest showman 
This song. This song. This song. 
“Cause every night I lie in bed, the brightest colors fill my head. A million dreams are keeping me awake. I think of what the world could be, a vision of the one I see, a million dreams is all it’s going to take. For the world we’re going to make.” 
Ughh someone help. Never give up on your dreams. They are beautiful and unique 
This is more or less of my “summer please stay forever” song. It makes me think of beaches and hot sunny days. 
“I can’t stop thinking about the sand in my feet, I’ve got a heartache cause cold ain’t for me. I wish my worries would crash into the sea, cause it’s far to cold darling, cold ain’t for me.”
I usually agree with this song when I see that it’s -40 outside and there’s 5 feet of snow on the ground.
CRAZY by patsy cline 

okay yes i admit it. im a sucker for 50's music. Frank Sinatra anyone?!?!? 
Ahhhh where to begin. This whole album is gold. Perfect for the long toad trips. Turn the windows down and the music up & sing along with these timeless songs  ;) :) 


AMEN by For King and Country 
Obviously ALL OF FOR KING AND COUNTRY’S songs are the besttttt. It’s a fine fine life, Ceasefire, Burn this ships and Priceless are just a few of their spectacular songs <3   Honestly I couldn’t pick a favorite. 
Yeah okay so this is a good song to blast in the car, with your arms out the window, and the summer breeze blowing in your face!! 

I AM YOURS  by Lauren Daigle 
This song .This album. This artist. There is so much in the words of this song. It is choosing to cling to God when things get bad and say, yes Lord bring it on cause with you, I CAN NOT FAIL.
“So let the waters rise, I will stand as the oceans roar, let the earth shake beneath me, let the mountains fall, you are God over this storm and now I am yours” 
“I am forever covered in your blood, so let the rain fall”

there is so much peace and worship in this album. i can not begin to tell you how many times I've been refreshed and lifted up by these songs.
So these are my current fav songs to listen too.  On repeat. All the time. lolo so check them out and maybe one of them will become a new favorite for you!
WHICH OF THESE ARE YOUR FAVORITE? AND WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN LISTENING TO ON REPEAT RECENTLY?!?
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